Yesterday I believe I realized that I rarely take risks and that once again as I was about to take one my oh so logical math brain decided it would get the bettter of me and decide to not end up taking that risk. Now yes part of the logical side won, I won't be taking as big of a risk as I was hoping to but my mostly supressed "fun" side decided it wanted a chance too. Thus as a result I am going to be doing half of what I promised myself and am rather content with it. I'm happy with myself that I finally decided to live a little. It's not that I don't live but I just feel that I never have taken an honest to God risk. Personally I don't know how I got this way. I never thought I was one to just sit there and always make safe choices all the time but I guess I am. I hate that I'm SO logical! Curse you math brain!! I guess it's better than the other extreme where I'd be all impulse with no logic or conscience at all. Ah well, this is clearly making sense to all of my loyal readers out there, all 4 of you, I LOVE YOU ALL!!! I'm sorry if I don't comment all that much, I am reading I promise. :) Anyway, I know I'm going to have a great time and my plans are actually unfolding nicely. Sorry this really ended up being more like a pointless and very vague rant, at least I all of you. Again SORRY!

Anyway, life in general is going well. School is over and summer is in full swing. It has finally hit upper 80's and lower 90's here and I'm loving every second. Give me the heat any day over cold and snow. I'm spending 3 days every week babysitting my old boss from Canisius, Tom's, kids. They're pretty good. For some reason today they're sleeping in extra late. Because of their extra sleepiness I decided I would take advantage of their wireless Internet and my ipod touch and update this thing. I must say I am getting used to typing on this tho I'll gladly take my normal keyboard any day. Other than the babysitting I've been hanging out with Mark, when he's home, and camping. You know, the usual. I am planning on watching more Roswell as the summer goes on. How I've neglected it so. I need to make many icons tho I'll probably be very rusty. I'll try tho. Ok well this little session has thoroughly killed my iPod's battery. Plus the kids are starting to stir...

<3

PS Don't you love my Wall-e icon?! Made it myself, it's pretty much my new mini obsession. :P

Yea so for some reason I found a wireless connection in the middle of the campground so I decided I would make a brand new layout for my journal as it was raining for a while today. As much as I love Shiri I needed something new and pretty. I wanted this to be similar to the colors of the Shiri layout but I just liked the grey and blue more. Ah well, Let me know what you think!

adrigon      adrigon      adrigon      adrigon      adrigon

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Wow my life is about to change so fast. My sister, who is like my best friend, is moving to New York City tomorrow with her boyfriend. It's going to be such a big adjustment for me it's not funny. I've never been away from her for more than 1 week or so. She might stay for only a few months or she might stay for 2 years it all depends on if she gets a job and how long Brian has to be there. I know it's going to be an even bigger change for her but I'm selfish and am going to make this about me missing my sister. I'll live. I know I'll have a good support group for me tomorrow but it just sucks that my parents and grandparents are going there with her and I have to stay here for my last week of school.

O yea that too, it's my last week of school!! 2 more days than prom! lol
Ok anyway I'm tired. I need to get on the whole grad school thing. I'm about 1/2 way there.

It's been a while so I thought I'd give a quick little update:

Good news. I'm alive and well. LOL Life has gotten better and the world is not as sucky as I thought it was. I was just kinda paranoid. Eh whatever... :P

School is QUICKLY coming to an end and I'm cramming to get everything in before the end of the year and do review at the same time. My 9th graders are never going to do it. It's not that I doubt them it's that they just can't, we're so far behind and it's my fault. Well not solely my fault but I didn't move fast enough when I needed to. 10th grade will be fine. Math Connections will be amazing so long as the kids take the final project seriously. I almost can't wait to start next year and be tough on those kids right from the beginning, I can be tough without being mean or bitchy. HMPH! *makes tough face*

I kinda of can't wait til summer, now if only the weather would coorperate! It's been miserable here. We're talking 40's and 50's here (30's at night). THAT SUCKS!! They say it's supposed to get into the 60's by the weekend which is good news. (Mind you we're supposed to be at 65-70 right about now)

Ok well tonight is the Budget Vote at school so I should be going. Remind me to tell you about Matt's fundraiser that we're having to try and send him to a college summer program for young actors/performers. He's an amazing kid with sooo much talent that he deserves to go. I hope he can!! We've all worked so hard for this fundraiser that it has to work. It has too.

My sister graduates from college today. WOW!

Then in like a week she's moving to Long Island. :( (but let's not think about that right now)

CONGRATULATIONS KIRK!!!

Life just sucks right now...

Case closed. The end.

Maybe this is my quarter-life crisis (at age 23! HA!). I dunno.

I'll live, things are just so MEH right now.

My job life sucks (a few of the kids ugh! and other issues I can't discuss for fear of losing my job, not being Tenured SUCKS!)
My love life is blah because I never see my boyfriend (he needs a new job!)
I almost never see my friends (with the exception of Catherine on Thursdays, which always makes me feel better)

I just feel so alone and bored with everything right now. I think I'm stressed but who knows.

I can't WAIT til SUMMER!!

I just want to curl into my chair and watch Roswell for like the next week.

WHO THE HELL LETS THE ATHLETIC DIRECTOR RUN A SCHOOL ANYWAY!?

Honestly...? :)

So as most of you know I went to a conference on Photoshop today. It was soo interesting. I wish they would have taught us MORE. I learned so much about channels and such and different ways of selecting that will get each and every aspect of an image. INCLUDING fine HAIR (you know those really pretty wisps of hair that the girls have, that!) I also learned how to sharpen things in a much better fashion than even unsharp mask. Lets see, I learned how to correctly make manipulations and learned more in depth how to use the blend modes. God there's just so much. My brain doesn't know what I want to do first. I can't wait to try. Good thing I have off all next week to try them out. Anyway, I made a VERY simple manipulation of Shiri in her beautiful green dress.

I took this pic and this pic, selected Shiri using the techniques I was shown, then color corrected her so that she blended in better with the background, sharpened it the way they showed. I'm SUPER happy with the results. I can barely tell that they are two different pictures. It almost looks like someone took a photoshoot of her on some paradise island.

( Here's the result )

Woooo! I get to skip work tomorrow because I'm going to a Photoshop Seminar! I really hope I learn tons of new tricks and techniques. I want to make graphics that will be outstanding. Like _coccy_ or hybridmagic XD Plus I get to have lunch with Mark! Yay!

Even if the seminars are duds and I don't learn anything new, I can still use the time to make some sweet icons.

WE BROUGHT OUR TRAILER BACK HOME TODAY!!!! I'm sooo excited because that means spring and warmer weather are definitely on their way. AHHH I'm soo excited. It made my day when I came home and saw that big box in our yard. I even showed Matt. lol


On another note, I pissed off two of my students when I switched their seats. One told me I needed to go back to college to learn a few more things, the other left class because he was so mad. God what is getting into kids these days?! I almost lost it (crying wise) when the kid told me to go back to college but I held it together, tho my voice was a little shaky. Just told him, they don't teach this stuff at college, they teach math. They teach how to assign seats in kindergarten. He was still pissed. Tomorrow will be interesting, I need to talk to him.